Sunday, October 21, 2012

Breaking Bad

As much as I like Breaking Bad, season three was... quite bad. But I see things picking up in season four! Hooray! Now, to... stop... urge... to watch... MOAR!

On to business:

It's Monday tomorrow, which means one thing... S-K-O-O-L. One good thing is that we have Friday off. It's International Relations (IR), which means less stress for the week, but somehow it means it's less interesting too. I'm really a noob at this IR thing. Gotta catch up soon! Read, read, and read. *sighs* And what's worse is that you have to take what you read with a pinch of salt. Just like what we did in PW in J1. Except this time, I don't really have the knowledge in the current affairs to really judge how good/terrible each article is in terms of its credibility. Reading user comments is SUCH A CHORE because some of them are REALLY biased. Like Puppet Walter says, "pisses me off".

Actually, I'm pretty satisfied with the subjects I've chosen this year. The non-compulsory ones are pretty interesting, even though I will probably have a hell of a time during exams, trying to recall and write. Hopefully, I can relate the rest of the equations in Valuation and Securities Analysis (VSA) to logic. Just had a breakthrough on Free Cash Flow yesterday. I UNDERSTAND! Whoot~!


ESAPsychology and Financial Intermediation (FI) are pretty boring sometimes, but when you focus, the content in ESAP is really quite interesting. I'm learning about things like Responsibility Diffusion, etc. And, boy, are they true or what! Too bad I couldn't get into FASS that time. Then again, I'm not interested in Bio. Haha, you can't get the best of both worlds.

Oh, and looky here, apparently, "Intermediation" isn't recognised as a word ("recognised", too). Meh.

I've got to stop writing/typing "convoluted sentences" and shift to concise ones. Maybe I've got a thing for commas. I don't know. Oh, look! I'm cured!

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

[Late] Junk Mail

Received an email from my dad. I almost freaked it. Turns out it was junk mail. Haha...

[Late] It's just a dream, it's just a dream

Try a situation when someone in the room says, 'There's a dead person in this room' and you are wondering who he/she is. You realise that you are listening to a lady standing at the front of the room. The lady is holding a relatively thick book (no prize for correctly guessing what the book is) and leaves an impression that she is representing a religious body.

She says that today, they were changing the contents of the book she was holding. People are all gathered inside the room listening to her. She goes on to say that this would thus be a day where strange things happen, which is partly why there is a dead person among the group. The lady warns everyone about the foreboding disaster and tells them to evacuate the room to safety.

Somehow, everyone in there (including you) understands that the dead person would not be able to move far from the room, to safety. Everyone stands up and files for the exit after grabbing their bags by the left front corner of the room. You join them and are now carrying bags of things in your hands, like many others.

Everyone is trudging on in something that isn't easy to walk on, but they are still moving forward, away from the presumed danger. You try moving with them, but fail. You can't seem to move your left leg, however hard you try. You think that it's probably an obstacle that everyone just seemed to be facing and conquering more easily than you. You try harder and harder, but your left leg hurts and seems to be caught in a trap of some sort, but you don't see a trap.

A person overtaking you simply says "I know who the dead person is."

Bye, Bye, Miss American Pie

I was surfing through Youtube, looking at classic songs. So I chanced upon American Pie. So nostalgic. So I searched for it on Grooveshark and started playing it, out of all the other songs I've added. The song lasts for 8 minutes and 34 seconds. Oh, My, Gosh. I was still wondering why the song was still playing after so long. This is so amazing.

It's another feel good song (I haven't really listened to the lyrics, don't judge me!) As far as the lyrics go, only 2 lines stuck: 1. Bye, bye, Miss American Pie. 2. This will be the day that I die. But that is really enough to remember the song by.

Actually the old songs craze stemmed from finding David Armand's dance interpretation of Don't Stop Me Now (THAT's definitely a feel good song), and it sort of went on from there.

I love feel good songs!

Sunday, October 07, 2012

All the single ladies~

if you like it then you shoulda put a ring on it. woh-oh-oh, oh oh oh oh, oh-oh, oh oh oh


yeeeeaap, so distressing.


ravend you're probably gonna be forever alone. so I'll say: asterisk this shit, I'm gonna continue being a nerd and study. maybe someday, someone will ask for me. xD

Sunday, September 30, 2012

BSOD -- I'm getting used to this sh*t

My PC is undergoing a system restore now. Thankfully there was a restore point before the bloody BSOD appeared for the first time on the Studio. I can just hope that the Windows Update on that day wasn't what caused the malfunction.



I was searching for answers after I managed to catch a glimpse of the error on the BSOD: driver_IRQL_not_less_or_equal. An initial search on google/yahoo tells me that the RAM is probably the problem. Now, two days later, the search tells me that it's probably a driver. Given that I do not know the difference between a RAM and a driver and any other computer parts, I shall not comment about this.



So after some searching, some (un)diagnostic tests, some (stupid) dialling Dell support on a weekend, and some hair-tearing at the series of BSODs, I have decided to take matters into my own hands -- fiddling around without the help of the Internet.



The results? Having no internet connection, changing the taskbar into the classic look with no knowledge of how to turn it back, and ending up with the Last Known Good Configuration being what I'd just described. That was certainly a case of "too little, too late". So this leads me to the system restore that hopefully solves the problem. Otherwise I'm going to have to rant to Dell tomorrow.



It's almost the end of my 2-year warranty... 11 days left, to be exact. And then the new year's warranty will begin. Ha ha. The importance of a Dell warranty will not be lost on me.

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

Rest in peace

I remember when you held onto my hand. You looked at me and smiled. You comforted me, you told me everything was going to be alright. That time, you were the one laying on the hospital bed.



On the last day, I held onto your hand. I wasn't ready to let go. You couldn't comfort me anymore. I could only hope that everything would be alright for you. That time, you had been lying on the bed at home, having lost your mobility. I hoped that you could hear my silent consolations for you.



Now, as you reside in heaven, I hope that you think of me as I think of you. You will always be the greatest man in my eyes. Even though it is now too late to apologise, I hope that you know that deep down, I love you and always will.



Rest in peace.

Monday, June 18, 2012

Actions speak louder than words. Let's play. We're going to have soooo... much fun in the future!

Tuesday, March 06, 2012

To the people who try so hard to forget, and then set yourself back just because you're curious about how what-you're-supposed-to-be-forgetting is doing?
Suck it up! Curiosity killed the cat, so be thankful that you're still alive!

Then you start thinking whether the something is still alive.
Well stop it! You know he/she/it probably is. It's not like you haven't tried to find out before this!

And you think to yourself: I shouldn't be reacting to this piece of old news, I've already seen this before!
Well, damn right, you have!

But that doesn't make it any less painful!
I'll show you what painful is if you don't let go.

You're right. I could care less if he/she/it disappeared off the face of the earth right now!
No. That would just make you inhuman.


You might never forget the people who have made an impact in your life. And it's alright. Just remember that the people who are still in it should hold more weight in your heart. Much, much more.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Disgusted

I'm so disgusted with two maplers today. Granted I shouldn't even be mapling at my age, that doesn't give anyone the excuse to mock me, much less on maple itself! What happened was (and forever will be) so ridiculous, you might be point and laugh. Beware!

I was training at a crowded map (meaning most channels had people there). Mind you, I've been there for around an hour now and my blue pot count has increased by at least 200 by then, from the drops by the monsters. As I'm a Fire, Poison Arch Mage (cue: applause, feelings of disgust, indifference), I have skills such as Big Bang, Paralyze, Teleport Mastery, Explosion, and Poison Mist (among others). As many FP Arch Mages know, at some point in time, we undergo something called poison training (or Misting) that enables us to train at something close to light speed. It is also a dreary routine unless one was training at sharks which could kill your character that much easier. After training for around 40 levels by Misting, the FP Arch Mage is can finally sigh in relief because we now have 4th job skills which make training so much less dull. Now I can train on Dual Ghost Pirates with either Big Bang (fire element) or Paralyze (poison element). A day ago, I realised I could use 1 Big Bang and 1 Tele Mastery to effectively kill off un-poisoned mobs. That's when I started this less dull way of training. And I can finally see monsters die because of my firepower (for lack of a better word), and not because of damage over time from the poison.

Today, it turns out that channel 1 was free (yes, I do check from top to bottom whether anyone was there before I deem it my territory for that session). Hence, I was happily training in this map again (need I remind you, for about an hour now). One of my closer buddies was online and I was having the time of my life chatting with her while taking my time with the mobs, getting an okay amount of exp. And this way of training (Big Bang + Tele Mastery) allowed me to collect most of the drops (Misting is a little too hectic). I guess this made my map a little too clean (sort of like a tidy and un-personalised house, huh). Anyway, as I teleported up the map via the in-map teleporter, I saw a Wild Hunter enter the map. I believe he asked me if I wanted to train together. I said "I don't think this map can".

With that he just started attacking the monsters as if I weren't there. I tried to go on with my relaxed pace, but I'm sorry to say that he did not have the sense to change channel. I had to defend my map, and my pride. Hence I made my way down the map, poisoning every platform. And I found another Wild Hunter further down the map. Now, many of you probably know that it's not easy (to put it lightly) to trump over Poison Mist in a map with more monsters than you can kill with two hits. That particular map easily has nine times as many monsters as you can kill per hit. Mist can concurrently act on all of them at the same time. Back to topic. I knew I had the upper hand in a KS war, that is, if they don't decide to call for back up for a prolonged KS war (I'm not staying in that map for THAT long, my inventory WAS getting full, you know). The exp coming in further testified to the theory).

After a while (I would say it had been 2 to 3 minutes), they got fed up and started scolding me "dog" (what is with that?!), claiming they'd been there first. That there wasn't any Poison animation when they first came in. Smart asses. Was I supposed to see arrows lying around when they're in the map?


In the end I decided that I still wanted to survive in that world. I didn't get my character to level 12x to quit because of (possible) future harassment from their friends or suffer a mass defame. So I decided to be the bigger person and be the gentleman (when I'm obviously a girl), to change to another channel.

However, it is not beneath me to rant about the injustice I'd been through.

Oh I did find another channel that was free (channel 5) afterwards. That is makes this so much more ridiculous because there were other free maps. I got tired of training after around 20min (not to mention the fact that I was pissed off). So I messaged one of them telling them my map was free and they wouldn't even find poison in the map because I don't train with poison, unlike 3rd job Fire Poison Mages =)

I'd think I wouldn't be so bold to make a false claim all over the internet. Especially if it's so easy to just have the admins check back on the server. Everything I said is true to the best of my knowledge. Screenshots were taken of the dialogue (on someone else's channel, channel 2), not the action (I'm not THAT fast).

I'm glad I got this out of my system. Now, maybe I can finally get some sleep!

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

sore losers

RANT ALERT!!!!!

Wow, some people are so hard-pressed to win. I was in a room with 3 people from the same FAM. Once i finished my first chain, guy1 told someone to press f11. Up came a series of rings accompanying room megas that went something like "df" "sdf" "sd"... You get the idea... It went on for around 5 moves and the dj (guy2) chained to x5 and overtook my lead position. At least i still managed go x1 throughout that disturbance. You can be very sure i was seriously pissed off. girl1 said something like she was the one who did that.

Halfway through the game, guy2 asked guy1 to "come up" (i was in 2nd place and guy2 was in 3rd). Great. So he managed to chase up to first. By some miracle, i think he missed some major move. Hah!

By the last 10 moves, i managed to chase up to the first position. Then dropped because guy1 managed to red-face me (and i cooled too). Then at the last move, i got my first again because justice always prevails and his red-face didn't register or something. I got a great and guy2 got a cool. Hah!

So girl1 said go "Beat Up, i can help you win"

Huh... What cheaters and sore losers. So what if your level is high. Someone who is more pro than you and lower level than you deserves to win you.

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Ever had such a good dream that you didn't want to wake up? I have, today. =D And it was just a dream, just a moment ago... I was up so high, looking down at the sky, don't let me fall~

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

i am psyched to solve problems today. it's what i'm made to do

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

sighs... Looks like I'm not getting any younger. Gotta go back to the clinic for another session. Let's hope she can help me get my back bone straight. I didn't realise it wasn't, until today. Be careful of your next sneeze!

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Standing at the window, I couldn't peel away. Rain splashed onto my face, My thoughts were my best friends. Looking at ants running to escape the torrent, Is being under shelter any better, When you're facing the same downpour, Brought in by the wind?

Saturday, March 05, 2011

I'm sorry for snapping at you. But what I said came from my heart. You really should wake up and learn to fix something when it goes wrong. Not wallow in self-pity whenever something doesn't go according to plan.

That is all.

Chopped liver

Wednesday:
Went to Starhub to ask about renewing my mobile contract. Took a number, 1028. The number was at 1025, which changed to 1026 in around 2min. I wandered around and eventually ended up sitting on a bench just outside the shop. Mind you, the shop was small. I was sitting around 10m away from the customer service counters. About 2 minutes before they called for my number, this tall lady walked into the shop. I was still seated outside and the number was still at 1026.


Then the number changed, to 1028. I was stunned for all of 1.5 seconds. It was too good to be true. I stood up and made my way to the counter, which took me around 5 seconds. About 4 seconds into my journey, the lady at the counter buzzed for the next number, 1029. This tall lady made her way to the counter too. Turns out she was 1029. So, we reached the counter at roughly the same time (with her reaching around 0.3 seconds before me).


The lady behind the counter hasn't even started addressing the tall lady, but she turned to me and said "You wait a while, can?" (loosely, and badly, translated) in Mandarin. The tall lady looked at me at that moment. I agreed to wait A WHILE. I actually expected the next counter's staff (only 2 counters were operating) to be informed of this "arrangement".


I stood there for around 5 minutes, getting more and more impatient (and regretting my decision, I should have said 'no'). I saw a lady looking in my general direction. She could probably see the frown forming on my face. After a while, the tall lady was done with her problem. I think she tried to make as fast as possible (maybe because the people at the next counter were still there from before I arrived in the shop).


She went out of the shop. The service lady went to the back of the shop without any apologetic look at me or any indication that she noticed I was there (I know, I was staring at her, expectantly, then my expression became just plain annoyed). She stayed inside for around 3 minutes. Then she came out, and I thought it was finally my turn. She stood behind the counter using a computer or machine of sorts. I wouldn't know. I wasn't in quite the mood to pay attention to details. What I know is that, it is basic courtesy to not let someone wait after you have called for them. The right thing to do would have been to attend to me, THEN do whatever necessary administrative work after I have left, then buzz a new customer.


After the tall lady had left for around 6 minutes, the second counter was done. About 10 seconds after the customers of that counter left, the lady buzzed for number 1030. Turns out it was the lady who was standing somewhere beside me. She offered for me to go first. I thanked her and then told the counter 2 staff that she let me go ahead of her (by then I knew they weren't so good at keeping track), and showed her my number. She said, "Oh past already ah?" (again, loosely and badly translated). I said yes (whatever, i just wanted to get to what I had gone there for). So we settled my grievances in around 5 minutes (or more). When I was going away, she actually buzzed the next number. Nice work. But this lady wasn't to be bullied. She went up to the counter.


I left, a disgruntled customer, but not without noticing that the first counter staff was still not attending to anyone. Who knows how long I could have been waiting.




Thursday:


I was running a little late for my maths paper. I rushed to the bus stop nearer to my house (which has only 1 bus available to my destination). I was in luck (I thought)! The bus was just rounding the corner when I was nearing the bus stop. I was around 5 metres away from the bus stop when it reached there. I had to negotiate my way about the cement that was used for drainage (which meant they had even holes in them which I could very well trip on).


As much as I would like to reach school on time, I would pretty much like to be able to reach school at all. I slowed down at that section of the ground. I guess the driver thought I wasn't going to take his bus after all because he turned out into the road after stopping at the bus stop (and no one got off).


Correct me if I'm wrong, but don't bus drivers usually stop their buses when people are signaling them to stop? So if no one was signaling from the inside, and no one was signaling from the outside (because no one boarded the bus), who was he stopping for? Okay, if he wasn't stopping for me, I actually reached the bus stop when he was turning out. He probably didn't see me (unlike experienced drivers who would look out for potential passengers who are running to catch up with them) because he was looking out the other side. Then again, the passengers inside were looking at me. I guess they didn't think that I wanted to board the bus, even when I extended my hand to try to knock it against the bus, in a bid for attention. I held back because it was just stupid and I could cause an accident when the bus driver was halfway through cutting into the next lane.


When the my gesture went ignored, the 2 girls sitting at the bus stop went "What the hell, the bus driver."


So I walked on, to the next bus stop (which had 2 available buses, including the first). The bus was stopped at the junction because of the traffic lights and the pedestrians crossing. In the end, I got on that bus because of the people boarding it in front of me delaying it from driving off again.




Something is obviously very wrong these days.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

A child

So...I guess I'm too late to get the free supplementary card from my dad. I was going through the letters today and I came across the 2 credit cards, to my mum and dad. So I made a passing comment, to my mum who was watching tv, that I also wanted one. Well guess what. She said I'm too young for one and that I would get scammed to sign illegitimate things. So I retort that I was going to be 20 soon. Highlight of the day: she tells me I had the mindset of a child. Ouch. That really hurts. The only place I hear this is when people are referring to the less mentally endowed. Thanks mum. You've hurt me yet again. You could have said that I wasn't mature enough but noooooo... You had to compare me to a child. Saying childish would have been better, thank you. So now I'm beginning to doubt myself. But how much do you really know? We don't even spend much time together. Sure I spend too much time gaming. But surely that isn't a true reflection of my real personality. My lecturer showed us a powerpoint of inspirational quotes today. One of them was something along the lines of "Everyone sees what you seem, but only some know who you are".

Friday, November 19, 2010

The way the cookie crumbles

Procedures:
Take a sandwich cookie. Take a rock (or anything hard). Put said cookie on the table. Put said rock on top of the cookie. Apply pressure from directly above onto the rock, onto the cookie.

Observations:
1. Top piece crumbles
2. Bottom piece crumbles
3. The cream in the middle looks for release, peeking through cracks and the sides of the sandwich cookie

The story:
The cookie is a unit of support. The cookies hold the cream, and the cream holds the cookies. The unit is put between a rock and a hard place. Both pieces of cookie finds it difficult to counter the different sources of the force. They instinctively try to protect themselves, but in doing so, fail to work together (How could they have worked together? Well, in becoming Super Cookie of course! But that's not the point here). They thus fail to protect themselves, and the cream in the centre. This is where they start to crumble...
But the story isn't about the cookies. It is about the cream. You see, the cream, having lost its support system, is fighting a battle on its own (possibly a losing one). No matter who started it, self-preservation is key at that point in time. This is where the cream shows us its real nature, its flexibility and adaptability. However, one cannot argue that the cream is no longer the same as it once had been...

Everyone has the potential to be adaptable, simply because it is in our genes. They were passed down from our ancestors who had evolved from apes, to what we are now. We shouldn't let hardships deter us from living life. On the other hand, we have to realise that nothing will ever be the same. We might as well embrace the change.

Random adds

What a coincidence... Some unknown person has been adding my friends and I on facebook. Well, I haven't rejected nor accepted yet. The funny thing is, when I went to his profile (to try to figure out who he is), I saw that it was full of _______ is now friends with ______ and 10 other people. I got amused when there was a break in between, where someone actually commented something along the lines of "hi, thanks for the add... but who are you???" My sentiments exactly! But why did you even accept the invite in the first place?! Well I was almost tempted to accept him just to "like" that comment. Almost.

Anyway, I was going through his wall using my phone, which *gasp* doesn't have that large a screen. So, while waiting for "See more posts" to load, a picture of one of the people he recently added caught my eye. It was an Audition avatar, albeit tiny on the screen. Naturally, I was curious, considering that the rest of the pictures were (probably) of normal humans. Clicking on it, I found my in-game buddy, Raspberry. Cool. Not to mention creepy.

Out of so many people "equipping" their avatars with the same clothes and the same hair (I would say that same hair item is owned by half the girl population in the game itself), it had to be someone I knew. This world is indeed small, huh.