I want to get good results for my streaming this year, so I'm sitting here typing in my blog. Don't get me wrong. It's not sarcastic language. I really do think that writing helps improve my language skills. Sadly, it's not in the correct language. I need help for chinese. Then I ask myself, Does it matter what language it is in? I'm crapping anyway. I tell myself. It doesn't really matter.

lame

im doing this here thing as i cant get to maplesea. it is lame. well i just came back from camp some 2 days ago. camp was slack. first day, we had 30minutes to pack lunch and dinner for camp at changi. mad. we hiked a long way and top speed to the NPCC campsite. there, we had to eat lunch and get separated into groups. me, felicia, jie heng and edmund were in the same group. we had to separate again when we had to pitch the tents. they wanted use to find 5 people from different schools and we ended up pitching tents we were not sleeping in. the people i was working with had no idea how to pitch tents or split work. me and another girl from new town did most of the work. i ended up with 2 blisters from pegging. burst one. the hurting lasted throughout camp. the tent a pitched was the worse tent in the sense that it was in the worst position in the whole campsite. it was the nearest to the trees and thus, resulted in a lot of insects. i was lucky that i did not have to sleep there throughout the camp. after we had our dinner, we were split into our tents in groups this time. i finally had someone i knew in the tent. that night before bed, there was a treasure hunt. we found a loaf of bread. that was the only clue we solved. the other teams that found all the clues harly got anything. we then had our shower which we had to wait a long time for as a lot of people were missing. i thought for sure tht we were going to get punished for it. however, we didnt. i then realised that either the ATC standard has dropped or they were just lying tht ATC was tough. all through the night we could not sleep. a lot of people were chatting. moreover, in the middle of the night, there was music playing! man... plus we heard the boys getting scolded. the instructors were mad. the second morning, we did not have PT. think that was because a lot of people were praying for rain. well it rained at 5+ when we were supposed to have PT. having to activate wet weather, we rushed to the canteen at 5.30am. which was 1/2 hour early. seeing that its was raining, the instructors asked us to go back to sleep and fall in at 7. that is cool. so we spent the morning having breakfast and after that, having our ATF. i forgot what it meant. we had the mini ropes course. simin and zhixin were the best at that. zhixin made it across everything quickly while simin sort of shook her way there without any support. now that's what's being cool. after that was the maze. some sortof maze. we had to really (not just practically) feel our way around. it was so dark that closing your eyes would make no difference except that it would make your eyes more comfortable. after the dark maze, there was a shooting game. it was pretty lame. teamwork, communication and cooperation. ha. well we went back for lunch, late as usual. it wasnt our fault that we were group 9 and were released last. well we certainly did not have time to cook. all i had was a can of sardine and a fruit bar. that was pretty pathetic. well we then had out survival course. it was boring but enriching. we learnt a lot of things there. things like not panicking, improvising and observing. we learnt how to make traps and get water. later, we went to the beach and were made to cook coconut rice and orange egg. we aso had to make some paisha thing which was a shade. our group's shade was the best. however, the coconut rice was not cooked as the guys were to lazy to dig out the flesh. the orange egg had a hole in the first orange and thus we had to get a second one. the second was burnt and we had to get it out of the fire. in the end, we dropped it. it became sandy-side-up-orange-egg. we went back to the campsite where we had our pioneering. we had to make a diagonal lashing and a square lashing. felicia was taking me too seriously. i think she was fed up with me. she looked like she thought that i was a know-it-all. when i offered to help, she looked like she didnt want my help and thought that i thought she was inferior. tht was pretty stupid. anyway, later we had to make a catapult. our catapult could not stand but due to the complicated catapults of group 7 and 8, our team won with a covered distance of 2m. group 7 threw 2 balls of twine and gorup 8 threw the twine backwards. we then went for our shower at the dorms. where the teachers were staying. we were the first ones in. we got ready for campfire. we were lucky that we did not have to perform tht night. edmund, jieheng, me and felicia were sitting together. before campfire, jieheng told me that he would have killed darrin if he went to the camp. he wanted to sit next to a CHIJ girl at the SANA course but darrin had got to the seat first. better luck next time jieheng. and wasnt wanyi enough? whatever. at the campfire, i forgot a lot of songs. jieheng next to me was like singing with recognition to every song. and some idiot was telling idian jokes when an indian guy was sitting in front. sure he was funny, but he was loud too. we were sure lucky the instructors didnt come up and scold up. the ubin wave was funny. at our section, the screams were low moans while at the middle sections, it was high pitched and the people were really screaming. the performances were funny. especially the 'i ask my love' where they acted it out and the 'when you're happy and you know it' they changed the actions. then we had the friendship dance. i kept stepping on people's toes. sorry. the next morning, PT was cancelled gain due to rain. woohoo. we were lucky. we were suppossed to fall in at 6am and it rained at 5.50+am. that was really sheer luck. we had breakfst in the canteen. then a really cadet-looking mdm (hey, she had plaits) asked us to gather all the messtins and stoves and solid fuels. we lost some messtins and stoves. we were expecting punishments but there were none. the instructirs just helped find the missing items. we had to fall in after the rain and it was really hot. the groups in front did not want to sit down as the ground was wet. however, our group sat and it was refreshing. we were sitting on the cold ground in the hot sun. we had to wash the tent sheets. fortunately, it rained again and we were stranded in the building away from the canteen. we did not have to wash the stuff. the instructors were sleeping there and we dared to sleep while the others were busy washing the things. we then had to wipe the sheets dry and then we got to fall in again. kaisiang was awarded best male camper for sec 3. after that, we fell in in units and had to trek back to the jetty. we got to board the boat first as ACS(I) sort of fell out with their NCOs. too bad huh. it was such a long queue we jumped. well we got back to the jetty of the island of singapore. i was the first to attempt to get down fromm the boat this time. i was so darn scared that i would fall into the water. well all those people who were disappointed, too bad for you, i didn't. we had to have our belongings checked like when we are flying overseas. then we had to go up and fall in in the rain. when they were happy, we went back to shelter. that was when i saw wendy and junling in windbreakers. that was also when i knew that they were sick. that was what the NCOs got for making us walk back in the rain. rain, not drizzle. a lot of people fell asleep in the bus, including me. i kept having to refrain myself, or rather my head, from knocking into xiuying who was beside me. i woke myself up when i almost bumped into her and she was staring at me. i felt pretty stupid. and glad that i wasn't sitting next to a guy. i have to apologise to xiuying for bruising her head with my wooden pole. i'll try not to next time.

i have absolutely nothing to post about... urgh... well a good friend cum class chairman is gone now... wish we could go to the airport tomorrow to send him off... pon lesson... pon NP... nice... but we were really upset when he left... amber cried... not using him you know... anyway... if anyone reads this... please send your regards to jui chih... he's flying off tomorrow... and good luck too for my cousin who's taking his o levels this year... since my sciece test is over, i needn't worry about a thing... so i can give him all the good luck... ha... not all... im a selfish kid... yea thats me...

i have no idea

i have no idea... neither do you... until i tell you what i have no idea about... that is... what i dont understand is why UNoHu keeps trying to provoke our form teacher... its not that i like her... sure... she can be unreasonable at time... however... i think that UNoHu is simply trying to show off that she does not like ms wong... she keeps saying that ms wong is biased... if she is indeed biased, she would be towards the girls instead of the boys as she, herself, is a female... waht crap is UNoHu trying to be? she keeps trying to turn the class against ms wong... and what a reporter... she refused to let someone else write about the depression rate of the class... even when the person is right, she refused... how selfish is that...? plus... that column was supposed to be used to write homework! now, she has dedicated the whole column to her stupid, selfish need to satisfy her hunger to be a reporter... she keeps trying to put others down... show that they are inferior to her...

promotion test

Well... Promotion test was really pathetic actually. San San and Mun Fong were our testers... With Mun Fong, we would score better. But with San San, we would score ridiculously low. Sir was more relaxed. More laid-backed. He would also be more lenient. Mam was strict and serious. All that with the high expectations thing. A Replica of Melisa? Sure, it's not who your tester is that will affect your performance. Well you got that wrong for sure. Mam just being there would make you feel nervous. The slightest mistake and you get booked for it. She just has a sort of way of making people feel nervous. She said that the whole squad's performance was not up to standard. Well of course it wasn't! With you there it wouldn't be in a million years! She said that the Privates were especially bad. At least we LCPs would relax a little. However, i thought that the squad's drills were at least 3rd class standard now, what with all the solid bangs. But noooooo... Some said I would pass CPL test. However, i don't have the 3rd class drill badge required to pass. And I wouldn't be able to get it this year, again.

holidays huh

Hmmm... Actually the holidays has already almost flown into non-existance... not like it was existant before. So here i am posting with a... few months?... gap from my last post. I figured I'm not gonna finish posting about my trip to US so I'm gonna leave it at that. Yep. So i could have been doing my homework now but nooooo... Instead, i'm typing at my computer. Nice. Real nice. so i've only got my pile of homework left. No big. and i've got until tomorrow to finish it. Great. And I can't go to the movies with my old friends. So darn fine. So i can't see my old friends anymore. Mind you, they ARE my friends, not just acquiantances. Well, most of them anyway. Well... Back to me and my homework... I WOULD have been faser in getting my work doen if i had the thing to start it off with. However, the thing I had in mind was missing. Missing a few pages to be exact. Ok, ok... A lot of pages were missing! 33 pages. Well that's nice. So now i have to go to the bookshop and complain about the book. I hate complaining. It brings the otherwise happy world to a hatred-filled world. The Aunty will probably hate me for complaining about the book. The students in line after me will probably hate me for holding the line up. I will most certainly hate myself for complaining and causing so much hatred in the already hatred-filled place. I feel so depressed. I have work undone. I can't find anything to do except watch Ranma and i feel that i'm wasting my time if I'm watching something. At least if I'm playing, I would at least have a goal. I spent too much time watching Ranma 1/2 today anyway. It's like no end to watching it. Don't get me wrong. Ranma 1/2 isn't something i watch when I'm bored. It's a passion. Well, almost. Inuyasha on the other hand is something i watch when I'm really bored or if i have guests who want to watch it. But I'm not gonna watch the first episode of Inuyasha anymore. 2 times is enough. same for Ranma 1/2. I just don't like the repeat of 1st episodes. They sort of drive you crazy. Especially when they keep repeating the facts in the whole entire series. Charmaine is driving me crazy witih her W-inds obsession. I was obsessed with Ranma 1/2 and Inuyasha. Now I'm rather obsessed with Fullmetal Alchemist. It's not those obsession that you keep asking your friends to listen to their music, or read their manga in this case. It's nice to be in something together. Like obsessing a certain anime or band together. It has the feeling of togetherness. It brings peopole closer. However, if only you take the interest and others pretend to like it, they won't like it when you keep ranting on about it. You should see their faces. It is selfish to make them sit through your incessant rants. You shouldn't be selfish. Like when someone falls, you should help them up. If they managed to sprain their ankle on that fall, you should know that thgey can't stand and if you've had experience with ankle sprains, you should be the one to support them physically to the sickbay or home. If you don't know anything about it, you should let an experienced person do the job. If nobody has had experience, put yourself in the casualty's shoes literally and think how you would want someone to help you. The basic thing is to get the person's legs straightened and hold it to a suitable height away from the ground. If you are just taking someone's injury as an excuse to walk back with the casualty, you are way selfish. Well... I almost completed a book this morning. Almost because it turns out that the book had a lot of pages missing. Argh! Pages missing again. So I've noticed that I have the ability to rattle on and on. Just not verbally. I can write or type something and end up with something completely different. I've just had too much experiences. And they say you are not experienced enough. I wonder how much I would experience when i grow up. I've met a lot of different people along the way. I've met people who did not let anyone have a chance and would not let me off a 1hour maths remedial to go to a NPCC course where only 20 people could go and I was one of them. Those are people who are not sympathetic, Mr Tan. There are people who are blur and make people frustrated with them, Charmaine. They say they want something lent to them and they forget ever asking for it the next day. There are people who are so cynical that they have to comment on everything they see, Jolin. They give sarcastic remarks whenever someone talks to them. There are people who act all lost-puppy in front of sympathetic people, Joyce. They want people to think that they are pitiful and in turn let them have everything. Then there are people who likes to criticise people when they've only done 1 thing wrong or offended him or her, me. However, the world isn't such a hopeless place. There are people who try to understand everything, Yi Ling. They listen to you and share their thoughts with you. They never talk bad about anyone even when you push them to. Even when they don't understand something, they force themselves to understand and put themselves in your shoes. There are people with exceptional memory and put it to good use. They remember what you say and do something for you. They remember that you like a certain band when they've only heard it once and when they come across something with the band on it, they buy it for your birthday present. They wouldn't say anything about the person you dislike in front of you. There are responsible people who does all the unfinished work before the deadline. They work all night just for the team and they manage to escape the wrath of the teacher or boss. There are people who shift all the blame to others. They get into a fight and when someone catches them, they say that the other party started it and make up lies that they were only trying to defend themselves. The rubbish people utter. If there were no lies, the world would be a more peaceful place. However, life would be a daily routine. Sure, there'd be no crimes, but poeple would be put in detention more often.

thinking abt US (SFO)

well... some of you know i went to the US for holiday... want to post... haha... so a lot of jet lag... but i dont think its jetlag leh... i only keep staring at the dinner beacuse i was VERY bored then... no one talks to me (i dont expect anyone to anyway... i would rather they don't) and my dad has to make up such a silly excuse as that i was having jetlag... that made me feel ever so weak... he was the one having jetlag... not me... ok... enough of the jet business... i feel disappointed on that trip... we had brazillian food on the first day... ok... not bad... at least it's south american food... ok... so we went to chinatown of san franisco on the second day... and surprise surprise... we had chinese food! 'hooray'... ok... never mind that... ya well... before that... we went to some ghiradelli square... says they make chocolates there... i actually saw a mustard factory... haha... couldn't have tour as it was thanksgiving... darn? anyway... if you havent noticed, we went to chinatown... ok... well saw a cd shop having a sale... a lot of ppl there... bustling... saw a lot of cds and vcds of anime... but no inuyasha... urgh... saw samurai x and wanted to buy... whole set... but too expensive considering it was shopping in US after all... saw posters of pokemon and clamp detectives and ranma... but left with the 'ugly' ones... so didn't buy... so we then went to the golden gate... pretty boring... it was still afternoon... didn't get on the bridge... took a lot of pictures and clips from the place opposite... a lot of ppl there too... saw the rock (alcatraz)... well... then we went to dad's friend(uncle daniel)'s house to have thanksgiving dinner... saw a REALLY... fat cat... haha... it was cute... but fierce... the dinner was darn bad... it was actually seafood steamboat cum turkey... i have no idea how they can finish a whole turkey with a seafood meal... if you know me well, you would know that i hate seafood... and the turkey tasted terrible... well... i fell asleep on the ride home... ok... day 2... went to downtown SFO... looked around fro viz communications for ranma... found the building but saw that the thing looked closed down... lots of gangsters... well... we went to niketown... darn place... considering the fact that i was wearing an adidas sweater... ok... got lost downtown... just because my dad thought that the person who directed us gave us the wrong address and decided to look at the map himself... believe me, i was fuming... because he kept scolding vulgarities at the person to me... believe me, i don't like ppl who keeps scolding vulgarities at someone who did nothing wrong... i felt we were on the right track... i told my dad... yes... but did he listen? noooooooooo... welll ok... we got the uncle to fetch us again... brought us to japan town and i saw kinokuniya... went in and saw inuyasha collectors guide thingie... bought that... actually saw the 3rd movie in the store... costs a bomb... $68.80 USD... ha... when i went back later, it was gone... i couldn't believe that someone would buy that for the amount they charge... well we had japanese buffet... (asian again) and went back... 3rd day... went for tour of SFO... saw coit tower, lombard street, the rock and all the high lows of SFO... believe me... it was really high lows... the streets were going up and down... i was almost scared half to death... well... we went back to golden gate again and this time we got on the bridge... learnt the history... well... we went to the same house again... saw the cat... same size... (thank goodness) and finally went to have a decent american meal... steak... House of Prime Ribs... they call that... had to wait in line... we waited and waited... i was falling asleep on the couch... finally someone went to check... seemed like they made a mistake and skipped us... darn them... well... the ribs was delicious... but the serving was too large... they had doggy bag service but my dad refused... that was stupid... we could have had it for breakfast... well... 4th day... were supposed to be driving to LA then... but dad's friend fell sick... so had to go to chinatown of all places to look for a bus that goes to LA... they had to find a vietnamese bus... well... whatever... we went to fisherman's wharf... nice place... had real cool shops... bought my san francisco sweater there... it was warm... at least i wont be shivering that much anymore... well... ate at fast food joint In-N-Out... had the best food ive had since i went to US... bought the sims 2 prima donna guide in EB games... real thick... 100% colour pages... (like buying a picture book? nah... had as much word as pictures... maybe more...) well... saw a lot of street performances... went to hard rock cafe... bought a bear... haha... add to my collection... and bought a pin too... add to collection again...

Spongebob

well... we... the spongebob group won the best cheer... fine and dandy... the camp was torture... i found out on the first day that it was a training camp... [ohhh... so that's why they call it ATC... 'cause it's Annual Training Camp... i get it...] well... as you can expect... we didn't live in a hotel... night one was in a classroom on the 3rd storey!!! 3RD STOREY!!! and the second night was in the tents in the field... out in the open... so the first day we had our jungle survival which was a bit slack... lunch was bad... we only had instant noodles to eat... darn that... we then got scolded and had around 5 minutes to clean up and bring all the things back to our bunks... then we continued the jungle survival... slack again... after that we had to go to clementi central for some 'treasure hunt' actually not treasure but heck... waht do they call it otherwise? anyway... we only managed to go to 3 places... that's weak... the finding the things in the supermarket was a killer... after that, we did some things...[i forgot] then we had dinner and went for night walk... darn scary... but that was the first part... when the instructors told us ghost stories... and so... we went to the first station... we sat at the table... kaisiang was beside me... he somehow found the station funny that he was laughing... [the person at the first station was yewseng...] so not very scary... haha... ok... so he laugh... then yewseng also laughed at some point of time... then we all laughed at them... ok... he told the storey and some NCO pretending to be a 'head-hunter' came out... we laughed as he was wearing white shoes... dead giveaway... we moverd to the next station and saw the 'headhunter' and kaisiang ran from the last person to the first... and after we finished the 2nd station, sunny 'fell out' from around the corner and kaisiang practically screamed his head off... that was funny... before we continued from the 3rd station, sunny said that he had never gotten that kind of response from anyone from any other group... and that kaisiang, who claimed to be the bravest screamed like a sissy... now that was funny... ok... we were then led around by several NCOs and the nightwalk ended... we had a scolding session from the CIs and HOs... we then had a water parade... had to fill all our bottles to the brim and finish all... luckily i didn't bring my water bottle down... we had to chare the water among ourselves... and i suspect i was the one who drank the most... almost everyone looked for me to drink the water... the junwen kept asking ppl who had trouble drinking water to look for me... darn... ok... we then went up to sleep... then at around 4am+, there was a fire drill... in the end we had to get punished... i didn't know how zhixin could sleep through the fire drill... we got punished because of that... around at least 50 pumpings... we then went up and washed up and went down to have PT before breakfast... well i gained a gastric pain and had to fall out... had stitch too... after we went back, we had to be punished... we had breakfast... measly biscuits... then we had games... captains ball... and woohoo... our group lost 3 matches... in the total of 3 matches... haha... but... those were the best games i have had in years... although we lost... except the match against the NCOs... that was because i didn't get a chance to touch the ball at all then... then we had lunch... then we went up to the 5th level to build our gateways and they had to be high enough for kiathow to go through... well... our gateway was the biggest and tallest... but not tied at the top... it really looked like a goal post... then we played tag... ran around in the hall... then we had drills... or was that before that? anyway... we did some things... [forgot yet again] then we had dinner... finally had rice... along with veggies and a drumstick and a nice fishball and hotdog... finally a decent meal... then we had campfire... we were all very enthusiastic... nice... had our performances... ok... then we went back and had a game with our shoes... haha... weird way of describing... we had to use our shoes to lay our a track for our blindfolded teammate...then after that lame game, we went to sleep... had to wake up at 12.45am for sentry duty... at 1.30am, some senior NCO called us back... he told us to tell our groupmates to go nack to the NP room... we called them back, just as we were setting off to find the other group mates, the sir/S NCO told us to fall in and not look for them... when sunny came back, we got scolded by him... i don't know why he was scolding us when it wasn't our fault... maybe we had a little communication problem or something... anyway... we went back to the tent to sleep... it was pouring for your information, we were sleeping at the side and had to sleep in a situp position, that was tiring... i kept waking up to see if we were ready to wake up... i couldn't take it... that time, i would have rather stayed awake than lay on my back in sit up position and feeling dizzy... the worst part was that it was pouring [not drizzling] for the whole night... when it was finally 4+ we had to wake up, i felt very very hungry... you couldn't blame me... we survived on 3! packet of instant noodles!!! for 10 people!!! and we had to have PT after washup... torture... as usual, i had to fall out and become casualty... i had a muscle ache after doing 50 pumpings, 50 crunches, 25 jumping jacks and 50 burpees... pure torture... we i fell out, i found it hard to breathe... i suspect that i was about to cry at my plight as i felt my throat become sore... anyway.. we waited for them to finish the next 100+ jumping jacks, 15 pumpings [boys knuckles, girls boy's style], 25 crunches and 25 burpees... then they went for the run... torture... they came back and we had to join them... they asked us to spread out and sqeeze... had to run as usual... mam liting asked us [casualties] to go back to the 'resting place'... then they had to carry out stuff and go back to the tentage(?) area... well... we had breakfast... had to scrape the black stuff from the fire from under the messtins(?)... [dad said those things are not good as in poisonous, cannot use for cooking] ok... we then had to clean up the place... we had to clean up the campfire area... real dirty work... after that, we had to get the washed ground sheets and the tent things dry... we 'invented' the flapping method... grabbing hold of the ends or the sheet and flapping it up and down... in the end, everyone copied out method and we got the sheets dry at long last... then we had to grab out bags and report strength for the final event... prize giving... that was the first time i reported strength for the entire camp... and i had to report it to mam yumei... and i had to be the one in front to receive the prize... darn... but it was really fun as no one was really scolded... we cheered for 'xiong', the flag from the nightwalk for the best flag... haha... we practically cheered fro the nightwalk things for almost everything... it was hilarious... everyone was in unison for the first time(?) [maybe] in the camp... haha... then we collect our valuables and interacted with our ICs and that's the end of the camp [finally]...

tic-tac-toe?

ok... this is pretty lame... so if you CANNOT take lame stuff... don't read this... i have warned you... ok... why i'm writing this is because i find this thing really funny... and lame... ok... you've been warned again... ok... so... me and ken played like 42 games... i think... or it could be 43... hmmm... whatever... ok... our way of tic tac toe... win means lose... pretty lame... but hey, at least it's not the same moves and counter-moves over and over again... thats pretty interesting... well... at first we were REALLY playing tic-tac-toe lah... but then he let me win until like 4 times then i let him win he doesnt want to win... then it becomes a mutual understanding that the rules were being changed... so on and on we played... trust me... that was better than the first 30+ rounds... then he had to go offline to watch inuyasha... so we played one last round... he said he will make me win... haha... and... well he lost... all due to my superior intellect... haha... and then ya... i have no idea how he can break his arm like that... i mean... he stepped on a soccer ball... said the ball was gay... haha... what a choice of words... my mum must think i'm mad to be laughing in the room... well it WAS funny you know... and he's one of the few guys in NP whom i don't hate... so i guess being a friend with him isn't that bad... although we all say he's a pervert... haha... which boy in 1/11 or the coming 2/11 isn't? haha...

promotion test

woah... today promotion test... finally? yesterday postpone until today... then yesterday stayed back to look at the sec 2s take their promotion test... pity them... cause yesterday the councillors meeting in the canteen and the teachers keep using the mic then the commander shout cannot hear... then they cannot do the drills together... but they only one tester... today we all 3 testers then all dressed in full u somemore... so formal... then ok lah... WOC not bad... at least they can hear... then the MOI very nervous... drill badge is the worst ah... 3rd class drill badge... they keep giving us marching drills... then we only learnt for around 2 parades only loh... then mam mistook it for right after the exams which is around 6 weeks... thats a huge difference loh... at least 42 days loh... then the march on the spot command i keep wanting to march out... darn... then berhenti i keep doing it wrongly... if i really get the drill badge then i'll be surprised ah... but i welcome the surprise lah... haha... as well as the lance corporal rank... well... if i don't get the lance corporal rank then i don't really think i'll be very happy... no joke about it... i doubt yu hui will pass her MOI though... too soft... and she forgot too many things... too tense or maybe she didn't prepare... oh well... what's done cannot be undone...

waliew pt like crap liddat

hah! today pt like crap (as mentioned above)... that sebastian take us huh! do 3 sets of 20... ya... i thought... hey! not bad! HOWEVER... he chose to take us to a 'higher level'... by having us do the sets without regular resting... like push ups for example... he chose to let us do 20 all at once... and only stop for a while when HE is tired... crap loh... then after sets is crutches or whatever... also like push ups... at least nicholas is better lah... like let us rest at regular intervals... like do 10 then rest then do another 5 then rest then do another 5 which amounts to 20... then he'll let us put our legs down... then rest for like 1 minute... then change to the jumping jacks... not like that sebastian loh... he think he from dance one must convert us to dance is it? then yee wei 'better' ah... he take us for the running run so fast one... want us to get out of breath is it? worse off, he run fast... then stop... then run fast again... then stop... stupid loh... how are we supposed to take running and stopping and beginning to run again? then THEY had to run up, down, around and around and around and around... and i mean that... you ppl should have seen the distance they ran... they like ran the whole school plus like around 10+ rounds around the netball court... i became casualty because of a stitch... sucks man... yeewei ask and i say stitch then he say, 'never do warm up properly lah!' waht the heck man... we didn't even do stretching of the stomach muscles!!! he say never do properly!!! is never do lah! he didn't do warm up is it? think of the only reason other than that its his fault and he say... i doubt he even thought of the fact that we didnt stretch the stomach muscles! crap him lah... hah! the casualties all from sec 1 this time and amounts to 12 casualties!!! all because of the running... heck man!

birthday presents!!!

hahahaha... so now i've got present from dad, mum and yl-c-v... haha... well can't really expect much as i'm not hosting a party this year... boooo... anyone who wants to buy me present out there buy me inuyasha poster can? only $3 only in comic connections... wahahahaso far i've got inuyasha 2nd movie - the castle beyond the looking glass... inuyasha playing cards... and... SUPER J-POP BALLADE... whoooooot!!! 3 cheers for my birthday! haha... i force my mum and dad to buy one lah... the 1st and 3rd present... haha...

Inuyasha movie!!!

woah... so i've finally bought the inuyasha 2nd movie... wahaha... i feel like a million dollars!!! it was so cool!!! i mean... oh my... touching... haha... i am so glad that my dad let me buy it... haha... well it HAS been 3 months since i've been longing for it... well... the graphics is better than the tv series which has amazing graphics on its own... so that's not an improvement... it's a miracle that they can improve it... i mean... its already this good and you wont think that it can be improved any more... and then the movie comes and you are shocked to see that the graphics are improved to a level that is better than perfect... just a figure of speech but hey... i think its terrific... and the 4th movie is about to be out... in fact i think its already out in cinemas in japan today... hmmm or is it 28th or 23rd? hmmm... whatever... im content with this... that is... until the 4th movie comes to singapore... that is... haha...

premonition?

well well well... so i hope you've read the previous entry about the dreams... as you can guess from my title... i'm gonna talk about premonition(s)... as i've mentioned... in my dream, one of the similarities were that i was at an arcade searching for 'twinkle star sprites'... so yesterday night... i managed to download some game patch or something for the game... and i inserted the cd and voila! i could play!!! so... waht do you all think of it? a coincidence? a premonition? oh my... it's mearly creeping me out...

dreams?

ok... so i don't exactly know waht is happening... i've been having similar dreams these 2 days... not such a long time... haha... but i osrt of enjoy those dreams... sure... it gets me tired... but hey... at least it takes place somewhere that's fun... dream 1: (ok... i have no idea why it's jumbled.. probably because my watch's alarm was on and it rang at 5.50am... real swell...) we were led by someone into the school hall (i don't really know if it's nh's or lp's) we were seated and well the performances started... behind me were ben(?) and jon(?)(why are they in my dreams?) anyway... where we were sitting suddenly became a pier and i was sitting beside the support of it... jon was directly behind me as we were sitting in 2s... i dont remember who i was sitting with...(either yeeping or yiling) i was almost falling asleep leaning on the support when someone nudged me from behind... i was furious(?)... then i remembered that someone wanted to change seats with me... she was behind ben... so i changed seats with her and her partner so i was directly behind jon... it was payback time... next, we were sort of given a break... i went to the toilet as i felt that there was sand in my mouth from the sand by the pier and saw stella(?) and felicia(?)... we talked... and i don't remember waht happened next... we were at some weird shopping centre where it looked like those old ones like maybe the old people's park? and the fulushou complex or something... ok... so i remember valerie, chi lung, nuraisah and amber there with me... we were about to leave that place when we saw ben(the channel U person)... i dont know why but we thought he was a chinese physician... so we chased after him... we went from first floor to 5th floor... when we were at the 3rd going to 4th floor, i freaked out because the escalator began to behave like those stairs in harry potter... it actually turned a full 360 degrees!!! ok... so we were at the 4th floor... we ran around searching for the clinic... we finally met at the lift... which was conveniently beside the directory... we looked at the directory and found some 'Bo Ling' clinic or something at level 5... so we waited for the lift... there was a crowd there... we could not all sqeeze in to the lift... so we waited for yet another... it was too long and i sugested going up the stairs... we saw some punks but since we were in a group it was not a big threat... we reached the 5th floor and waht was there? a gigantic arcade!!! it was so big... we went in and i followed chilung to some game as he was leading... when i looked back, there was no one following behind me... so i realised that they'd splitted... so i left him to his game and went to the other side of the arcade... it was such a long way... it made me tired just running halfway there... i passed by chandini, valerie, gong tuo, and kim hock... there i stopped and and sat down... i found myself sitting with some girl i knew but forgot who... so TKH there started talking crap since we had not seen each other for a long time... i couldnt believe it but i was still in my school uniform!!! how did i get into that place with my uniform on? but never mind that... something more ridiculous happened... mr choy... known for his surveys on asknlearn, i piece of paper appeared on our hands and he told us to do the survey... i was shocked as i hadnt even played with anything yet... how was i supposed to answer... so i came out of the chair i was sitting on and founf that there was some sort of roof on me... i struggled out of it and found that it was my blanket... haha... dream 2: we were just released from school (lps) and i was with my usual hairstyle at LPS with my short-but-can-tie hair up in a ponytail... we were walking to the back gate with valerie in between kenneth and me... she told us that she heard a song which she hummed... i knew it in a second... it was somewhere i belong by linkin park... she asked us who it was by and me and KL said linkin park immediately... i dont know why but i remembered that i once said that linkin park sucked to K and now im acting like this... i dont know why but i changed course and headed for the front gate when i saw my mom there and headed into my dad's car... i saw mr wong and mr low and they said i was breaking the school rules by having my hair tied up in a ponytail... (isn't that NH's school rules?) we arrived at some arcade... it was big... not as big as the one in the first dream but big... bigger than the e-zone in westmall... there were all sorts of games and i went around trying to find 'twinkle star sprites'... i passed by someone who had 'incredible' aims... he was so bad that when he tried to shoot a hoop, he managed to get the ball to rebound back and managed to almost hit me... and he was so fast(that or the machine was out of control) that i had to run to dodge them... i passed by kenneth (why's he there?) and went on my search... i found 3 games which had twinkle star sprites characters but it wasnt twinkle star sprites... it was some other game... so i went around looking... i found a boy playing some throw-the-pingpong-ball-into-the-hole game... he was such a terrible aimer too... i managed to catch hold of a long-shaped pingpong ball(?) and threw... of course i missed... i walked on by... my legs were tired form the walking cum running around looking for the game... i saw my mom and hurried to her... i wondered how she could have found me in such a big space... so we went to my dad's car and i woke up... swell... well they were so weird all involving some big arcade... and NH and LPS mixed together... i don't know waht to think... is it something to be afraid of or just some innocent dream that one should have every night? i guess i won't find out...

Concrete Angel

Concrete Angel

She walks to school with the lunch she packed
Nobody knows what she's holdin' back
Wearin' the same dress she wore yesterday
She hides the bruises with linen and lace

The teacher wonders but she doesn't ask
It's hard to see the pain behind the mask
Bearing the burden of a secret storm
Sometimes she wishes she was never born

Through the wind and the rain
She stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings
And she flies to a place where she's loved
Concrete angel

Somebody cries in the middle of the night
The neighbors hear, but they turn out the lights
A fragile soul caught in the hands of fate
When morning comes it'll be too late

Through the wind and the rain
She stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings
And she flies to a place where she's loved
Concrete angel

A statue stands in a shaded place
An angel girl with an upturned face
A name is written on a polished rock
A broken heart that the world forgot

Through the wind and the rain
She stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings
And she flies to a place where she's loved
Concrete angel

Ok... so i absolutely recommend this song to all you people... it's by Martina McBride... i think... i think she got an award for this song... well i can tell you she deserved it... or rather the song did... it's just absolutely beautiful... and touching... well... i sort of found this song reading the fanfiction 'Silent Screams'... well... my heart sort of goes out to those being abused and don't really know about it... so... people... take note... if there's something you ever heard about a child being abused, please... don't think of it as just nothing... they are people too you know... don't tell the person who is allegedly abusing them as that might do more harm to the child... i know through the fanfiction i read... and it's based on a true account... even if it isn't, it sounds logical enough... these things happen you know... sometimes you just come across them... sometimes you don't... so that's all i want to say for now... Ja Ne

darn PT

wah... pt today really like torture... i was actually thinking taht maybe i liked pt yesterday night... but who was i kidding? it was really just pure torture!!! guess how many casualties there were for sec 1s today? 12!!! do you believe it???! now onto the details... whoo... first we had warm ups... no sweat. then came the sets... that was actually not that hard... except for the fact that we had to do 4 sets instead of the normal 3! waht a bummer! first were the push ups... 15 push ups... crunches... 20 crunches... scissors cross... 15 scissors cross... jumping jacks... 30 jumping jacks... so... not bad... if we only had to do 1 set... but we had to repeat it 4 times!!! 4 times!!! ok... so i survived that one... but guess what? we had to run around the school 3 times!!! ok... so i became a casualty after the first round because of a stitch... i would have comtinued slower... but there was some brainless nco who was shouting at us!!! 'aye! run lah! stull dare to walk???!' that ruined my chance to try to run another lap... so i stopped and joined the casualties... i mean, they were supposed to encourage us when we didnt have the willpower to run any further... not rage us!!! so... ok... pt done... and we were all left with that painful memory... i still am sore all over, mind you. so we had to run to 1/10 classroom to put our bags after our 5 minute break... ok... hurts but i can take it... we ran back to the parade square... fell in... and guess what... we had to run back to 1/10 classroom to get our uniform to change into half-u... not really very bad... so we ran back to 1/10 classroom... we had to for some long time until they were all ready... we asked for permission... we went in and ran out to the area behind 1/12 classroom... too bad... we took 24 minutes to change into half-u!!! we were shocked... so we had to change to pt kit again... realllllll.. niceeeeee... not! so we changed and went back 15secs after the time limit... not bad... no punishment, yet... so when we fell in... some idiot had to say that the parade sucked...so we had to do some 20 'nice' pumpings... then we had to change to half-u once again... pretty much a routine now... so we changed... couldnt walk to the toilet... we had to run... so i had to hurt all over more... and so... once again... we were outside classroom 1/10... we finally were 3 minutes late... yippee... not! so we owed the corporal 180 pumpings... we girls had more reasons... reduces to 60... because of the time we had to wait to get into the room... to run to the toilet... to run back... to get into the room... to execute kekanan lurus... to sediah... haha... so we learnt marching... had to march on the spot for what seemed like eternity... so we had to change to pt kit again for campcraft... darn it... we realllllly had a hard time learning how to tie the sheepshank or something... the stupid person kept teaching us how to tie it on one side but iddnt complete it... so when we tied the one side... we didnt know if we did it correctly or not... it was after he taught us how to tie it the '3 loops' way when he taught us how to tie the other side of the knot... he was obviously not teacher material... that wasnt really that bad... at least we had the chance to enjoy the nice floor with our bums and not our feet... dismissal was really looked forward to... it was the most pleasant part of the entire parade... altough we did have to stand in the sun to wait for mrs lee to get to us and tell us about teh good news... i was starving when we were really dismissed.. but unfortunately, we had to wait for the lance to hand us our valuables before i could buy things to eat... great... just great... i was having gastric then too... so i had to get to stella when she was talking to sunny to beg her to hand over my valuables... woah... the best part of my day was that i got to sleep for 6 hours in the afternooon after the parade... 3.30pm to 7.30pm... great going...

young leaders' day

well... today we went to some young leaders' day event at singapore poly... speakers were motivational, movie clips were motivational as well as entertaining... haha... one of the speakers, dr andrew goh was the greatest speaker among all of them... he made us laugh and feel better about ourselves... probably because he was quite a professional speaker... haha... he told us a joke(not true story)... it went...chairman mao of china was meeting president nickson. now, chairman mao knew that when president nickson left a country, it will be under america. so he thought very hard. and he got an idea. if he could learn how to speak one sentence of english, he could stun president nickson as he was sure he could not learn a sentence of chinese. so he asked his assistants to teach him how to speak a sentence of english. his assistance thought that he was so old that it would take up too much time. but the boss is alwasy the boss. so they taught him one simple sentence. 'how are you'. so chairman mao went to practice it. when he mastered it, he thought,'if i could learn that, i could learn another sentence.' so he asked his assistants to teach him another sentence. they taught him yet another simple sentence. how do you do. finally the day came when they would shake hands and it would be on the world news. when chairman mao shook hands with president nickson, he was so excited that he said 'who are you?'. president nickson was shocked. chairman mao then said,'what do you do?'of course, like i said, thats not a true account or anything... that was just meant as a joke... for anyone offended in any way... i apologise... one more thing dr andrew goh said, he asked us to repeat it after him... In the end, it will be OK. If it's not OK, it's not the end.

siblinghood?

well, today i invited charmaine, vivian, yan bing and yi ling over for a movie marathon... it went rather well except for the food... pizza was far too much fro us... we did not finish it as you guessed... i have invited them over for the 2nd time this year. i finally have tquite the answer for this. i feel in 'need' of siblings sometimes... it's not like i really wish for siblings as from what i've heard, they can be quite a problem sometimes. however, i feel that sometimes, they can be fun to be with even though they wreck your toys and disrupt peace like you all say. most of the time, i do feel the joy of not having a sibling barging in to your room and bugging you when your doing something important or not so important for that matter. i can do without them as my mum does that --the barging in, not really the bugging-- sometimes. i don't have to share a room with them. i don't have to fight for my parents' whatever. i don't even have to fight to get money in that case! i just open my mouth and ask. if they agree, no one would want something that's the same from the same father and mother (less wastage). if they don't agree, too bad then. to all of you reading out there, i mean no offence towards people who have siblings or don't... please don't take my opinion wrongly... i am here to write about this things as i prefer to think of my blog as a diary where not a lot of closed ones get to see anything while the further ones get to as most of you out there don't know me... neither do i possibly know you... i just like for this chance to tell all of you i would wish for world peace... it's not just meant as a saying because everyone says that, but rather in a more serious way... the world's peace affects everything. world's peace affects the rate of divorce, the birth rate, the death rate. whether enemies are made, whether wars occur. if everyone could just settle their disputes in the more peaceful manner, the world would be a better place. of course then, the lawyers and judges would be out of job. but think of it this way, so what if they were out of job? surely with world peace, people would not be so selfish. people will offer their things to the less fortunate. if everybody were to be friends and there were no enemies between people, there would surely be no war. not only would the stocks rise, the world would also be a richer place. people would be sharing their riches and we will all be able to indulge in luxury together. however, maybe this might be wishing for too much... people might say we have our differences as we are unique. differences means fight. fight means no world peace. however, which one do you think is better? a world with world peace that is luxurious or a world of killing with suffering? make a choice... world peace is better, i tell you.

hiking trip to west coast park

wah today hiking to the west coast park veyr tiring ah... walk walk wlak for dont know how long one ah... from school to aroung new nus high school campus, then cross the expressway... then walk the whole way along the perimeter of nus campus ah... mad man... then we walk nearly all the way to the port there... turn and saw some houses... gto one dog there kept barking at us when we passed by... i thought it was a bird with sore throat or something... but it turned out to be a small, white dog... no, not cute... then finally we saw west coast park... waited at the traffic light... wait until the green light came on but no green man... realised that they didnt push the thingie(button?)... waited... still no one push... expected a non-green man again... i was right... then theyy realised that they hadnt pushed the thing... this time... 'learning their mistakes', they pushed the thing... not only one but 5 people, 5 times... finally we crossed but we left the other groups behind... had to wait for them... had to do PT... i thought they promised us games day for one whole day? not like last time half day PT half day games...? had PT but felt the liquid in my stomach 'slosh' around during sit ups... not a good sign... had to run to the stage 'nearby' as we were not high enough... did 2nd set... then same feeling when it came to sit ups again... then had to run... realised that my throat was too dry and had to fall out... was feeling ready to puke any moment... not good... while i sat with the medics(joanna & kiat how) and bag manager(wei teng) and another casualty(fiona), the others were having fun in the obstacle course... too bad... you win some, you lose some... other casualties came and it became crowded... saw some silky terrier or something without a leash jumping around with owners behind it... stupid pup... some kid about 3 years old(noticed he was a kite-flying expert) cmae by with his beagle... the terrier chased after the beagle and they jumped around and we laugh... very rude, yes... they chased each other in circles... can you refrain from laughing when you see two small doggies running around in circles? after that, some fairfield student came by and the terrier once again began its chase... the student was only saved by the pup's owner... after that, the other groups came back from their frisbee game adn was getting ready for their PT... only that their PT was more than a little slack than ours... we had to do sets and run 2 rounds before heading for the obstacle course but they only had to run one round before that... after thath, we ate(white rice with potato wedges, hotdog, luncheon meat, fried chicken)... no veggies... very unhealthy... left most of the rice in the box when i threw it into the bin... then had to go back... lucky for them they booked the bus... otherwise they would have had more casualties than they could carry......