Does the title matter?

Even before PW was over, had been thinking about creating all these pics and making a new blogskin. Cause since the last post, I've seen that my posts no spacing AT ALL!

I feel kinda idiotic at this. Created a new background with the pic I took at the Esplanade. Well I took it at the Esplanade but it doesn't feature the Esplanade. Lol it's the Singapore Flyer. No intention of even going up there. Singapore, what to see? Try the London Eye.

Anyway, blogger preview really isn't working for me. Had to save template then load the cranberryriver.blogspot.com to preview. -.- Don't know if it's just me though.

And I still can't get the background to squeeze in the window without the scrolling effect. Can't get it to fix there for don't know what reason. I'm an idiot at this, I guess. No matter. It's just for fun anyway.

I'm getting bored... I think I'm not getting enough sleep. Sleep too late and wake up too early (relatively). 8hours of sleep isn't enough for me. I suspect this lack of ability to continue sleeping is due to the long exposure to PW. Grrrr... I shall remember the days I couldn't sleep simply because i had so much work to do.

This just sucks

Feel quite emo now.

People are leaving. one after another. Feel quite contradicted and disappointed that 1 simple thing can lead to so many.
Expected this actually, when it first started.
But was quite surprised nonetheless when it first happened.
Feel quite third-party and insignificant when people decide to make decisions just like that without thinking about others.
Even now, it's like the rest of us are insignificant and it doesn't impact us. It does. And now we see the effect.
Maybe I'll feel better after blogging. It's not a big deal anyway (by right).
Felt better after talking to someone more mature, another third party like me.
This whole incident just seems so trivial and yet the impact seems monumental to me.
I'm taking things too hard (been told this by 4 people already. i don't need another)
I can't guarantee I will stay, but I don't want to leave too.
So now I'm releasing all these frustrations here and locking it away on the Internet. Isn't this very ironic?

-So now that's it? We've gone our separate ways? No goodbye, no nothing?
It seems everything that has been built up has been discarded; just flung out the window.

-Even though you say who stays is what matters, I don't think many of those that matter will stay.

mugger

hoho... second day of jae then sprain leg liao. hmmm wuite unfortunate. missed the dance party although i didnt like the mass dance there. preferred jj one. so high, then they teach they will smile one... not like the first intakes who just teach, teach, and teach. like rushing through like that. really couldnt catch loh. anyway, went back for jj night. actually i went for jj afternoon. went to the doctor's again. grrr she told me the blood vessel or something of my feet burst. felt so sad lah. a bit shocked loh. so now i can sort of see spots of purple on my feet. eeewww. lucky its fainting now. hope it WILL be better after 3 days. hmmm. ive been limping throughout my days in nj liao. they must think im weird or something. hope not. so now im in a class with only 5 guys. quite sad actually, a bit no life in the class. dont really click well with the rest of the class except for a few. this just feels weird loh. maybe sort of like in sec 1 and 2. when i was a freshman. plain weird because i practically can run anywhere in class when i was in 403 lah. and even in 08s13 in jj i anyhow squeeze in with the guys when eating. now it just seems weird that i cant fit anymore. the transition is quite big. so sad. 1 ponned 2 chem make up lectures. hope i can really selff study. been doing that for maths. havent really seen what results that will yield. tomorrow i shall begin to mug. T.T